I realized today that you have to be happy with yourself before you can really be happy with someone else. Not sure if that makes sense to everybody but it makes sense for me. You can’t be looking for someone to fill that void in your life, you have to do things that will fill that void for you, what I mean by that is that i feel you should do something that you love or are interested. I know that you can be happy when you are with someone else but when you are only happy when you are with someone there is something wrong with that picture. All this time I’ve been doing the former, looking for that person that would be that fit (not trying to wife anybody up here but I’m just saying) for me, and i realized that I’ve been doing it all wrong. I haven’t really been happy with my whole situation and I now realize that I have been looking for happiness in all the wrong places, happiness should start from within and no one could make me as happy as I can make myself.
P.S. On a non-philosophical note: I’m pretty messed up… don’t know how the hell i wrote this crap but it seems to make sense to me… Please let me know what y’all think… and for some reason I think I’m finally getting the Asian glow (nothing to be proud of actually). Goodnight y’all.
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#1 by Katrina on November 16, 2010 - 12:27 am
I can definitely relate and wholeheartedly agree with you. It took a really bad breakup and living in England for me to realize what you had drunkenly been made aware, so definitely kudos to you for your epiphany. I feel like you can’t be with someone seriously until you really know who you are. It makes it that much more amazing when you eventually meet someone who loves you exactly for who you are. But then again what do I know, I feel like with age, and being in Europe for so long, I’ve become a hopeless romantic. Good luck to you for growing and finding happiness.
#2 by ColonelTurtle on November 16, 2010 - 8:50 pm
KATRINA! thank you very much im glad that someone knows what im talking about.. but yeah definitely had to learn this the hard way i suppose, don’t know if that really makes any sense… its okay though! gotta work on myself first before i can make anyone else happy!
#3 by Katrina on November 16, 2010 - 10:21 pm
Cheers! No worries, just focus on yourself and ideally you’ll run into someone who will share that space and/or moment